I AM TRYING TO STAY CALM ABOUT THIS. I AM TRYING REALLY HARD NOT TO GET ANGRY. I AM CRUSHED. AFTER EVERYTHING SAVANNAH HAS GONE THROUGH IN HER LIFE AND MOST RECENTLY, SHE HAS FALLEN AND BROKEN HER RIGHT ARM AGAIN. I HAVE LEARNED TO BE PRETTY TOUGH THROUGH HER MEDICAL TRIALS. BUT FOR SOME REASON THIS TIME I JUST CANNOT STOP CRYING.
YESTERDAY EVENING OUR FAMILY WAS TAKING A BIKE RIDE. I WAS STANDING RIGHT NEXT TO SAVANNAH WHEN SHE FELL AND REBROKE HER RIGHT ARM. HER SCREAM WAS CHILLING. THE BRAKE IS HORRID. HER ARM LOOKED LIKE THE LETTER “S”. WE RUSHED HER TO ER WHERE THEY RESET HER BONES. WE WILL NOT KNOW FOR ANOTHER 3 WEEKS IF THE BONES WILL HOLD OR NOT. DURING THAT TIME SHE COULD HAVE PINS PLACED IF THE BONES SLIDE. SHE WILL BE IN A CAST FOR MONTHS. FOR THE NEXT 3 WEEKS SHE IS NOT SUPPOSED TO MOVE UNLESS NECESARRY. SHE WILL NOT BE ABLE TO FINISH THE SCHOOL YEAR, PLAY ON HER MIRACLE LEAGUE TEAM, ENJOY THE SPRING WEATHER, TAKE THE 1ST SWIM OF SUMMER, OR HUNT FOR EASTER EGGS. I AM BESIDE MYSELF. HOW MUCH CAN ONE LITTLE GIRL TAKE.
I HAVE BEEN UPSET FOR THE LAST 24 HOURS. BUT NOW IT IS TIME TO SEE THE POSITIVE AND START THE HEALING. I AM GOING TO FIND AMAZING THINGS FOR SAVANNAH AND I TO DO. I AM GOING TO CHOOSE TO MAKE OUR TIME TOGETHER MEANINGFUL AND SPECIAL. SHE IS GROWING UP SO FAST AND HERE IS A CHANCE TO STEAL ALL HER TIME FOR MYSELF. SHE IS SLEEPING NOW AND EVEN IN HER SLEEP SHE IS SO SWEET AND PRECIOUS. HER INNOCENCE RESONATES EVEN IN SLUMBER. I KNOW THIS TRIAL IS NOT FOR HER BECAUSE SHE IS ALREADY SO PERFECT. I AM GOING TO LEARN TO BE A BETTER MOTHER AND FRIEND. I AM GOING TO LEARN PATIENCE, I AM GOING TO BE CALM, I AM GOING TO BE HAPPY. I AM GOING TO RELY ON MY HEAVENLY FATHER FOR COMFORT. I AM GOING TO ASK HIM DAILY TO TAKE AWAY MY ANGER AND SADNESS. I AM GOING TO WEARY HIM WITH MY PRAYERS FOR THE COMFORT AND HAPPINESS OF MY PRECIOUS DAUGHTER. I AM GOING TO TRY DILLIGENTLY TO NOT COMPLAIN. THESE NEXT FEW MONTHS WILL BE HARD ON SAVANNAHS BODY AND MIND SO I WILL CHOOSE TO LIFT HER UP AND ACT ON MY PRIVILEDGE OF BEING HER MOTHER. I LOVE MY SAVANNAH, ZAVY, & RUSSELL. THANK YOU MOM AND BROOKE FOR SPENDING THE NIGHT AT THE HOSPITAL WITH US FOR THE HUNDRETH TIME. YOUR PRESENCE OFFERS SO MUCH PEACE TO SAVANNAH AND MY FAMILY. THERE ARE SO MANY IN THIS WORLD WHO CARRY GRATER BURDENS THAN I AND MY FAMILY. I AM CONTINUALLY GRATEFUL FOR THE TENDER MERCIES MY HEAVENLY FATHER BESTOWS ON ME AND I HOPE TO CONTINUE TO BE WORTHY OF SUCH BLESSINGS.
IF YOU HAVE A MOMENT TO SEND SAVANNAH A CARD OR CALL HER THAT WOULD REALLY LIFE HER SPIRITS.
